Torn Between Two...

Why does my heart feel like it is tearing in different ways? Isn't love 
supposed to be one and thee? My heart feels to thee, but a knife stabs and I 
bleed like an extinct wounded animal. What is going through my gray, 
stormy mind? How can one love and not know what they want? My torn-
bled heart is bleeding like lightning striking a tree and thundering to the 
dark ground.Why does the everlasting pain last? The heart and soul of my 
love is being torn and ripped between the two hearts that both die for me. 
Maybe the pain within will travel when I leave the gray shadows of night. 
Maybe the pain within of being torn between two will fade into the 
memories of treasures. I don't know, but please help me return to the 
exciting and happy person I used to be!