My Sea of Emotions

Serenity is the peacefulness one gets when they are at peace.  Nature is  serenity.  The mountains are open, like one's heart while it breathes the  crisp mountain air.  Waterfalls flow as one's mind cleanses to the bottom of  their soul.  The smell of the dew is as a newborn when he cries his first  tears.  Peace is what everyone should feel.  Serenity is what makes us  whole and good.

The day you came into my life changed me forever.  It was not love at first  sight, because I was not looking for love.  A new best friend is what I  found.  Someone to cherish life with as it comes.  Someone to lean on when  I'm all leaned out.  Someone that I needed desperately, when I hit rock  bottom.   As time went on, you were meant to be my higher-power.  God knew I  needed someone and sent me you.  As my problems subsided, you were  always there for me.  If only you knew how I felt.  Oh!!!  How it feels to be  free, once again.

Love hurts not just mentally, but physically too. Love isn't all fun and games, it's painful too. Love's painful moments can stab you with a knife. Love leaves you wondering the last moments in life.

My love for you is deeper than the earth itself. My love for you means I won't put you atop that shelf. My love for you burns hot at night; that's why I won't let you out of sight. My love for you I can never explain; for I have and will never shame.

Making love tenderly Making love you and he Making love to the touch Making love to you oh so much Making love desperately Making love quietly Making love is oh so heavenly Making love to you with every need

To be with you, is the most precious thing to me To be with you, brings downs the fences within me To be with you, makes me feel whole again To be with you, the thunderstorms will never come in To be with you, I want to be forever and again To be with you, I feel together and never on end To be with you, someday the ends will tighten and not loosen To be with you, I hope you will have never forgotten

Getting to know someone can be a challenging, yet exciting task.  When  you first meet, you become aware of things that you haven't noticed before.  Your mind is in thoughts of twirling excitement, yet the state of cloudy  confusion.  Your heart takes steps towards the caution line, so it's not torn  in half as it was before.  As you are away, a piece of me is missing.  I feel  alone once again.  Sometimes I wonder if you will come back to me.  Only  the lost moments of time will tell.  You say that you will be back, but do  you say those words for yourself or for me?  Lord knows that I don't want  to lose you, because of my pushiness, but to be with you in our short time  together, is enough for me.

What is it about her that turns your head?  Maybe it's the seductive way of  her moves, or the stream of talents that come naturally.  Although you may  not see it, I try in so many ways to make you happy.  But through my eyes,  it's not enough for you.  My streaming eyes wander to see the value she  means to you, yet your denial helps my eyes stream harder.  When I see the  woman, I want to run away, as my self-esteem slips into the tunnel of  loneliness.  The other woman causes much of the grief in my world today.

No words, you speak.  My thoughts, fuck with me. Emotions, once had. Gone now, forever sad. Darkness, fills my world. My blood, thicker still. Empty, pain inside. Alone in, the dark I cry. Once close, we were. My friend, no more. You kept, yourself from me. My soul, still bleeding. Painful, memories. Wicked fate, haunting me. Alone again, as once before. Alone I’ll stay, forever more.

Why does my heart feel like it is tearing in different ways? Isn't love  supposed to be one and thee? My heart feels to thee, but a knife stabs and I  bleed like an extinct wounded animal. What is going through my gray,  stormy mind? How can one love and not know what they want? My torn- bled heart is bleeding like lightning striking a tree and thundering to the  dark ground.Why does the everlasting pain last? The heart and soul of my  love is being torn and ripped between the two hearts that both die for me.  Maybe the pain within will travel when I leave the gray shadows of night.  Maybe the pain within of being torn between two will fade into the  memories of treasures. I don't know, but please help me return to the  exciting and happy person I used to be!

Scared of you because I cry You raise your fists to my eyes. Scared of you, I love so much That's why I can't take too much.

Deeply within, no one knows just how hollow the sorrow goes. Deeply within, tears are frozen my heart bursts because it's swollen. Deeply within, no one tries to see within and deep inside.

Deeper and deeper into the darkness I go as the thoughts of my mind  disappear.  My mind freezes over, but then boils until it evaporates.  My  body's fuel injects itself until it runs out of exhaust.  I run on fumes until I  am able to get gassed up.  My soul needs that special touch of another  human being.  So gentle to human, that the two hearts and souls become  one.  The two would teach each other to love, trust, and respect one  another.  Until then,  I will live within my shallow loneliness lost inside of  me.

Loving someone is not only sexual, but is more of a soul-searching game.   When two have found true love, their hearts, minds, souls, and inner  strength become one.  I had found this new power of love, though for some  unknown reason, was lost within time.  The heart itself stops pumping  fiercely as it had been for so long.  Your soul is buried deeply within the  shadows of night.  The mind scatters to every darkened corner, as well as  your physical presence.  As you find yourself alone and scared, you no  longer know how to feel, see, or hear anymore.  The lonely soul is not a  laughing matter.  Please help me to find peace and happiness again  for my lonely soul can not stop wandering away to fray...

When they took you away from me, my heart sunk the lost loneliness within  time.  The pain is so unbearable that I feel like a knife is stabbing me  through the darkness.  Deeper.  Deeper.  Deeper..  Why does love hurt?  A  heart  can only pump so much love that when too much is there, it is lost  within time.  No one knows exactly where this painful love hides, but the  desire to love, and to be loved, is hidden between the wanting eyes.  One  feels like their soul is hollow.  Too hollow to show their true feelings.  You  feel like an empty nothing.  Pained love is something deeper than a  wounded cut itself.  It slowly transfers itself through the mixed up mind  that feels unwanted.  The mind that is the lost loneliness within time...

People say things are fine but in reality aren't.  One day the clouds are  sailing upon the open sea.  The next, your heart and head are burning  flames of open fire along the edges of the earth.  What to do next?  My  traumatized mind knows not what to do anymore.  Slowly, I feel myself  slipping through the tunnel of life.  Not knowing my inner-self or strengths  as life is taking me down.  I crawl for help, but no one is there anymore.  I  find myself asking what about me?

Sometimes there are days that I just can not handle society.  Reality fades,  as my mind settles beneath the deepest sea.  Looking from the darkened  cold water, I reach for the sky, only to reveal my lost soul.  Blinded by  tears, I taste how salty sorrow is.  The numerous drops begin to form  blocks, trapping me inside.  Slowly suffocating, my eyes hallucinate how my  life used to be.  Smiling, I try to remember.  Anger arises as I fight with the  raging sea, only to discover, I'll never be free.  Lonely days pass, as I fight  for my freedom.  Society's hunger starves me, as I am hidden in the corner.

Knowing too well what I had, I through it all away. Like the seasons that come and go as quickly as life does. Time passes and you feel alone. So alone, you feel as if time won't change that lonely soul. Where's the laughter, or the joy of life? I feel as if my inner-self has disappeared into the shadows of night. People say it wasn't meant to be, and that there is someone better out there in that strange world. I guess all I can do for the time being is to have faith in that and bounce back. Until then, I stand alone.

Crispy leaves I love to hear, crackling under my feet it draws me near. People say it's nature dying, but I always think the world is just hiding. Not forever the earth lays dead, just nature planning its new awakening. The autumn crisp air is sharp. Special spices and traditions are coming our way, I love fall always, to this day. Music roams in my head, constantly clearing the cobwebs built within. The lyrics and rhythm entangles in my hair. Expression and passion through music I learn, my emotions unravel with every turn. My love for music will always burn. Living life through music will always be, my true love in life, oh can't you see. Music expresses how I feel. It's never ending time can not kill. Witch am I, as the Earth believes. Visions I've had through life are as real as can be. I've never been just a normal girl. Throughout my life, clues gave me a chill. Animals come closer to me and communicate at will, but stray from you cuz you scare them like hell....