My Sea of Emotions

The day you came into my life changed me forever.  It was not love at first  sight, because I was not looking for love.  A new best friend is what I  found.  Someone to cherish life with as it comes.  Someone to lean on when  I'm all leaned out.  Someone that I needed desperately, when I hit rock  bottom.   As time went on, you were meant to be my higher-power.  God knew I  needed someone and sent me you.  As my problems subsided, you were  always there for me.  If only you knew how I felt.  Oh!!!  How it feels to be  free, once again.

Love hurts not just mentally, but physically too. Love isn't all fun and games, it's painful too. Love's painful moments can stab you with a knife. Love leaves you wondering the last moments in life.

My love for you is deeper than the earth itself. My love for you means I won't put you atop that shelf. My love for you burns hot at night; that's why I won't let you out of sight. My love for you I can never explain; for I have and will never shame.

Making love tenderly Making love you and he Making love to the touch Making love to you oh so much Making love desperately Making love quietly Making love is oh so heavenly Making love to you with every need

To be with you, is the most precious thing to me To be with you, brings downs the fences within me To be with you, makes me feel whole again To be with you, the thunderstorms will never come in To be with you, I want to be forever and again To be with you, I feel together and never on end To be with you, someday the ends will tighten and not loosen To be with you, I hope you will have never forgotten

Getting to know someone can be a challenging, yet exciting task.  When  you first meet, you become aware of things that you haven't noticed before.  Your mind is in thoughts of twirling excitement, yet the state of cloudy  confusion.  Your heart takes steps towards the caution line, so it's not torn  in half as it was before.  As you are away, a piece of me is missing.  I feel  alone once again.  Sometimes I wonder if you will come back to me.  Only  the lost moments of time will tell.  You say that you will be back, but do  you say those words for yourself or for me?  Lord knows that I don't want  to lose you, because of my pushiness, but to be with you in our short time  together, is enough for me.

What is it about her that turns your head?  Maybe it's the seductive way of  her moves, or the stream of talents that come naturally.  Although you may  not see it, I try in so many ways to make you happy.  But through my eyes,  it's not enough for you.  My streaming eyes wander to see the value she  means to you, yet your denial helps my eyes stream harder.  When I see the  woman, I want to run away, as my self-esteem slips into the tunnel of  loneliness.  The other woman causes much of the grief in my world today.

No words, you speak.  My thoughts, fuck with me. Emotions, once had. Gone now, forever sad. Darkness, fills my world. My blood, thicker still. Empty, pain inside. Alone in, the dark I cry. Once close, we were. My friend, no more. You kept, yourself from me. My soul, still bleeding. Painful, memories. Wicked fate, haunting me. Alone again, as once before. Alone I’ll stay, forever more.

Why does my heart feel like it is tearing in different ways? Isn't love  supposed to be one and thee? My heart feels to thee, but a knife stabs and I  bleed like an extinct wounded animal. What is going through my gray,  stormy mind? How can one love and not know what they want? My torn- bled heart is bleeding like lightning striking a tree and thundering to the  dark ground.Why does the everlasting pain last? The heart and soul of my  love is being torn and ripped between the two hearts that both die for me.  Maybe the pain within will travel when I leave the gray shadows of night.  Maybe the pain within of being torn between two will fade into the  memories of treasures. I don't know, but please help me return to the  exciting and happy person I used to be!